Been trying to get into some kind of rhythm and groove after my surgery. Well, it hasn’t really happened. Sure, I’ve written stuff. I’ve spent a lot of time brainstorming and figuring out things. But I’ve been feeling off kilter. I think part of it was my forced time off writing and part of it is my grandfather’s death. He was my last living grandparent, 97 years old. His funeral was last week. I’ve cried only once, but I’ve felt his absence. I wrote a blog about him on the Turtleduck Press blog. http://www.turtleduckpress.com . Scroll down a bit. It’s called “Honoring My Grandfather.”
I have my 2nd chapbook, Without Wings, releasing April 1st. So this month for me will be getting everything finalized. We’re down to less than 30 days!
Alpha Female has continued to be my problem child. I had to cut 5k because, as usual, it wasn’t working. Started poking at it again tonight, and that didn’t go very well. I’m thinking of setting it aside and working on it here and there. I’ve only got 5 parts to finish and the draft will be done.
Annnnnd I started the Pirouette revision. Just 210 words, but hey – gotta start somewhere! It’s daunting, knowing that this is the last revision (so I’m telling myself) and I’ve got to nail it. So I’ve been putting it off. Well, I decided today that I’m going to work on it. Sentence by sentence if need be. A lot of it is fine. It just needs to be tweaked and cleaned up. There are some things I’m changing too, but nothing major.
It feels good and it feels scary.
Lastly, I got clobbered by a plot bunny recently. It’s a psychological horror, which I hear has no market, so I’m in no hurry to write it, but dang. It speaks to the twisted, kinda crazy side of me and it’s drawing me in. Relentlessly. It’s about a girl who has erotomania – that is, she believes that someone is in love with her, a famous person, and he’s not. It’s all a delusion. And this is a real condition. And it’s fascinating because, well…imagine what someone in love would go through for the one he or she loves…when the love is reciprocated. Now imagine that intensity but without it being reciprocated but the girl believing that it is. Can you imagine some crazy things? Yeah. That’s what I’m talking about. It’s tentatively called Eros in Chains. Another one to add to the pile.
So….this is going to be an interesting month. I’m hoping to finish Alpha Female but who knows if that’s going to happen. I need….something, and I’m not even sure what it is. Just feel so lost right now. Hopefully, I’ll find my way again.